Our Journey so Far....

Sorry it has been a while I didn't know it had been so long until I looked this morning on my page and saw my join date. Today's blog will be about our journey thus far as all my other blogs have been just rantings on other topics. My husband is 27 and I am 24, and we have been trying since I was 19 to have a baby. We have been to two ob's, as well as infertility doctors, and I have been impregnated three times. One of which was before I knew I had any issues. I was healthy looking back then. I had no issues with my cycle then either. then all of a sudden I had a miscarriage and within a month had gained nearly 200 lbs. Nothing changed with me, I had the same exercise and eating habits which weren't bad. No doctor could tell me what was wrong. I moved to a different state found a new doctor and found out I had PCOS. The doctor told me I probably always had it, but the pregnancy just jumped started hormones or something. DH and I then began trying for next pregnancy. Nothing nothing and more nothing. OB put me on metformin and checked my progesterone. she told me it was a little low, but not that bad, i had a 7 when ideally you want a 10. but she still put me on clomid. It took five rounds of clomid but it happened!!! we were finally pregnant again after two and a half years. what a miracle!! but alas we lost our little miracle at only six weeks. I went for an ultrasound to make sure everything was coming out as it should, and they found a 7cm cyst in my right ovary. They scheduled a laparoscopy for February, and they got rid of it. She also told me she would look around and get rid of any other cysts or issues she may find. a week post op i had complications and had to rush to the hospital. they found two more cysts on the other side, one 5cm the other 3cm. these are cm we are talking about not mm so she should have seen them right? guess not because there they were. by this time i had scheduled to speak with a new doctor, a fertility specialist. I had my initial interview, and he did his own ultrasound since I was three days into a new cycle, he told me we might as well not waste this cycle. the cysts were two large and he told me we would have to do yet another laparoscopy, this was only a month and a half after my last one and I had really only just recovered. I was devastated. The next available date for surgery was a month later (a few days before my anniversary). We booked it and went on with our lives. Had the surgery got rid of the two cysts that the first doctor neglected and he found a minuscule spot of endometriosis. By June we were cleared to begin our treatment. we did more clomid, four more rounds, coupled with hcg trigger shots. in October we found out we were again expecting. but it didn't last long as I miscarried two days after we found out. we took a break through Christmas and then got back into the clomid hcg cocktail. in march the doctor decided to add IUI. we did that once and then gave up because DH grandma got real sick, and ended up passing. at the same time his sister announced she was expecting which happens every time I miscarry, so i decided I didn't wish to begin trying until she gave birth(she is a whole different story). they my grandfather got sick and i moved in with him to help him until he passed in November. so it has been nearly a year since we began our break. we haven't been preventing anything but nothing happened so it doesn't really matter. last cycle I decided I wanted to start trying again about halfway through my cycle. I ordered fertilaid, and started taking it right away. I got my period on time for the first time in ages. I have also gotten acne this cycle around AF which hasn't happened since i was 18. I'm hoping these are good signs and I will continue to take fertilaid for at least three months as is suggested on the bottle. I'm hopefully that this will be our year. after all our trials the last two years have given us with the two miscarriages and two deaths, I think we deserve a little miracle. If anyone reads this, I do apologize for the rambling. Please forgive me